Newbie and Crapping Myself

I was another that ummed and ahhed for over 3 years about having this surgery.  I changed to top cover thinking I want this now, I researched trying to get it down 'now'.  The started thinking about it.  Gave myself another chance to loose weight on my own... over and over.

Then about three years later I realised nothing had actually changed.  So off I went.

I still think, giving your self some extra time to be ready mentally is a good thing.  Got to be ready for such a big change, and risky operation. 

Now I think what the hell was I waiting for... but obviously I was waiting for the 'right' time.

Good luck with your journey!

KateyOverWeighty wrote:

Isn't it funny how different the human condition can be for people... never for a moment have I been unsure or scared about this. The only reason it has taken me to the age of 30 to do it is because of the cost involved and laziness for saving. The risks of surgery including fatality don’t even creep up on concerning me. I have thought that maybe it’s because I have had major organ surgery before, or maybe the blasé attitude is another symptom of depression. It’s like, if I die, at least I died getting healthy/slim. I’d literally rather die than spend another miserable day in this body I hate.

I can be quite a black and white blunt cow sometimes so please don't take offence to this… I will return my morbid thoughts to my own diary where nobody has to read it lol

LOL @ blunt cow...  !!  No offence taken at all.  And no way are those thoughts morbid.  Love hearing someone with a cruizy approach to it all.

I'm actually at the point now where I've done so much research I'm feeling my consult will be very short with minimal questions.  "Hi I'm Becky when's the date?"

(Well I hope it will be that easy lol)

Thanks to you all for the feedback.  xx

Isn't it funny how different the human condition can be for people... never for a moment have I been unsure or scared about this. The only reason it has taken me to the age of 30 to do it is because of the cost involved and laziness for saving. The risks of surgery including fatality don’t even creep up on concerning me. I have thought that maybe it’s because I have had major organ surgery before, or maybe the blasé attitude is another symptom of depression. It’s like, if I die, at least I died getting healthy/slim. I’d literally rather die than spend another miserable day in this body I hate.

I can be quite a black and white blunt cow sometimes so please don't take offence to this… I will return my morbid thoughts to my own diary where nobody has to read it lol

Hi Becky

I having been having this give me another year dance with my doctor who raised the idea of the sleeve some years ago. 

In February 2014 I was hospitalised after struggling with pneumonia for a year, I went under the care of one specialist and came out with 3 of them.  Well long story short I promised and asked my doctor give me another 12 months. I had some mild success my health improved I thought I was getting there and then as usual life got in the way.  A lot happened in that year the birth of my grandson, I bought another business and our wonderful trip to Italy,  just busy busy busy too busy to take care of me.

So in March this year I bit the bullet and headed to see a surgeon to have the sleeve. It all sorted surgery set for June 5th.  But before my I got to my surgery date I had my first heart attack.  I ended up having heart surgery instead of the sleeve.   That was something of a wake up so when I had an offer to sell the restaurant I jumped at it. Time to take care of me, My surgery was rebooked for Oct 23rd.  But I still had 8 weeks to wait so took advantage of the time to spend with my grandson.  All this time I am still struggling with will I actually go through with this. 

I was at the park on my own with Dylan and we were having such fun on the swings then as he was tiring I got him out of the swing and went to step up out of the playground and could not get up I was mortified and so embarrassed I could not lift the baby up out of the sand pit.  It dawned on me then because of my size my grandson could be at risk because I cant move quick enough if something was to happen to him. That was it for me Becky it was enough for me to know there was no longer a question I seriously had no choice if I wanted to have unsupervised time with my darling Dylan.

Everyone's reasons are different but I have to say you story being all or nothing is the same as mine. However only you can make the final choice.  But be sure you do a pros and con just as aussiearies suggested and very sure because it is not reversible.  Good Luck Mxx

Hi Becky

I can only speak for myself when saying I did not WANT this surgery, but at 57 when I had it I knew I needed it. I too changed my mind regularly and at the time of going into the theatre I had to stop myself getting up and running away.

But I didn't

Some years ago I was going to have the Lap Band, I saw a specialist about the gastric balloon and before seeing my surgeon in Feb last year I had an appointment to see about the endobarrier.

I made a list of the pros and cons of the surgery. I have chronic pain and oeatoarthritis and I knew I needed to lose weight to help with that. Sadly it actually hasn't helped but it has helped me cope with life more and have it be less unbearable.

This is serious surgery and not reversible (which is actually one of the pros for me) so you need to be sure it is right for you. That does not mean you won't be nervous about doing it. If you were not nervous I would say you don't know enough about it.

But I am now over 12 months out and I have lost over 40kg since the sleeve. I have lost weight and put it back on again so often that I knew I could not do it alone, especially since I could not exercise (which I did find helpful in losing the weight in the past)

I NEVER want to go back to what I weighed before this surgery. But you need to understand it is a tool and you will still have to work at it, it is not a cure. And even with the sleeve it will still be you doing it. It is not the 'easy' way out but it does work.

Good luck with your decision. I am sure others will also give you the benefit of their experiences.

Hi All,  

So I've been lurking around for a few weeks now reading, researching, googling and reading again.  First I must thank you so much for your honest and transparent posts.  I must say its reassuring to read the general consensus is that there is no regrets.  

I won't bore you with the pre journey (insert vomit emoticon) story,  but would like to hear if anyone simply did not want the surgery.  I am a healthy eater accompanied with a steady flow of undesirable yummy comfort food and the inability to just stop feeding it into my mouth. 

There seems to be an all or nothing attitude with me and when I'm in 'The Zone' I consider myself quite the champion at clean eating and exercise.  When I exit The Zone, which seems to be every 7-9 kg of weight loss, I'm on the fast decline to hell again.  Serious back issues and blood clots are not contributing any positive influence hence the need for what I consider drastic action.  

My first consult with DR Braun, Everton Park is on 8th Dec 2015.  Probably surgery in Jan(?) at Northwest Private.   Fully self funded at the grace of Superannuation (Fancy being allowed to access my own money to save my life - Bless).

So my question is - Is there anyone who simply did not want the surgery to the point of changing their mind daily, yet went ahead.  What was the point you come to terms with it all and did you wish you didn't have it done.  I feel like I am constantly going to beat myself up for not being stronger and losing it without the surgery. I'm wondering if I should just tackle it all with the help of a Pysch and try to break the cycle....  

Cheers for your time