Wow, that was fast. I've only posted twice in here, that's how fast it was!
So i had my first appointment with Jon Armstrong here in Perth today.
My surgery is booked for the 14th of January! It concerns me slightly that I was booked so fast, just how fat am i??!? LOL!
Next week I have my Psychologist, Dietician and Sleep apnoea appointments all in one day on the Tuesday, then I see my surgeon again
on I think the 21st of December for a follow up to see if everything is peachy. I have my blood test form all ready to go for Wednesday when i get to work ( I work in pathology, so i get them done in the morning before i start. Lucky me! )
Text on a page can seem rather same-y and monotonous sometimes, so I'd like to take this opportunity to explain myself and how I feel about this surgery. I'd love to see people's comments and how they can relate, I am so glad I joined this forum when I did.
I have always struggled with my weight - I could lose it sure, but before long it'd creep back on and even more on top. It went up and down like that from 16 years old ( I am now 30 ).
I am tired. I am tired of standing up from the couch and finding such a simple task a struggle. I am tired of being scared when I feel my toes slowly going numb from the diabetes that is bit by bit ruining the nerves in my feet. I am tired of shopping in the bigger people's section in Target and Big W, never happy with how I look even if by chance I did find something. I am tired of people laughing at me in shopping centres, I am tired of being self conscious whenever I am not the only one in a room. I am tired of playing on the floor with my 19 month old baby girl and panting like a bloody walrus at the slightest of our exertions. I can't MOVE anywhere, it's so limiting! I am tired of boiling in summer, feeling like I am going to pass out as my body tries to cool down.
I am tired of not feeling like a woman, not taking advantage of my youth. I am tired of feeling like I am not good enough for a large majority of men (as shallow as they may or may not be..)
I am tired of fearing that I'll get cancer, have a stroke or a heart attack - all of which are in my family on both sides.
I am tired of feeling tired from my sleep apnoea!
I am STOKED at the thought of being able to move properly and not have my legs join up at the knees, to be able to wear gorgeous clothing with confidence, to not feel second rate in a society that, as hard as you try to be a positive and happy person, is swathed in stigma towards the overweight and the obese. I couldn't sleep last night, it's like a bloody dream come true. I used to dream of being slim and would wake up so downtrodden. Here it is, the answer to my dreams and the aid i need to help me shift this crap off me and set me free!! Bring on the knife!